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Examining Mother Daughter Sexual Abuse with Julie A. Brand, M.S.

Our guest today is Julie Brand, author of  A Mother’s Touch: Surviving Mother-Daughter Sexual Abuse. Today we discuss her book, her work as a counselor, and her advocacy regarding the education around this kind of abuse.  Listen to our follow up show with Julie Brand HERE.

Because of the lack of information about this type of abuse, we are proud to further the available resources. Julie is a nationally recognized speaker on this topic and she does provide listings in this article for additional resources.


Questions and Answers from Julie:

What have you seen amongst survivors of this type of incest that is unique from other kinds of sexual abuse trauma?

During the past ten years, I have met and/or corresponded with many adult survivors of mother-daughter sexual abuse. Some are in their 20’s; others are over 70. As with survivors of other forms of sexual abuse trauma, they have struggled with guilt, shame, self-doubt and depression, in varying degrees. PTSD (Post traumatic stress disorder) “flashbacks” and nightmares are common.

What I believe to be uniquely devastating about mother-daughter incest is the betrayal of the mother-daughter relationship. It is not just what was done to the child but who the perpetrator was. It seems unfathomable that a woman would molest her own child. “Why?” “How could she?”  In addition to their other responses, many survivors of mother-daughter incest experience the profound grief of being, in essence, “a motherless child.”

How has the reaction been from therapists, law enforcement, academia, for example, when speaking about this kind of abuse?

It has changed.  When I first begin speaking on the subject of mother-daughter incest, I would see a lot of “deer in the headlights” expressions of shock and disbelief.  Many of the professionals in my audiences commented, “I’ve never heard of this before.”

More recently, we have made progress in acknowledging that females can be sex offenders.  Several factors have contributed:

  • Women are participating in the possession, distribution and production of Internet child pornography.  Abusive mothers sometimes take “selfies.”
  • Viewing the graphic digital evidence quickly destroys the belief that “a mother couldn’t and wouldn’t do that.”  Judges and juries are no longer in such denial.
  • Female teachers are increasingly being reported and arrested for inappropriate sexual behavior with their students. These can be highly complex cases to prosecute. Some people still view the behavior as “victimless”.  But, we are at least talking about women as perpetrators.

What questions should a survivor ask of a therapist to make sure they are working with one who can actually help them?

Survivors may be extremely vulnerable when they seek therapy.  They often lack the time, money, knowledge and courage to “shop” for an effective therapist.

It is important to get referrals through professional organizations designed to help survivors, such as:

Survivors should not be afraid to ask questions of each potential therapist, such as:

  • Has the therapist worked with other incest survivors:
  • Is the therapist knowledgeable about female sex offenders?
  • Does the therapist use Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT)?
  • Is the therapist familiar with trauma-informed therapy?

What role does narcissism play in mother-daughter sexual abuse?

Not all narcissists are child molesters but I believe all mothers who are capable of molesting their own children have NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder).

If we look at the characteristics of someone with NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder), two of them stand out as particularly relevant:

  • Inter-personally exploitative (takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends; doesn’t care who gets hurt).
  • Lacks empathy (is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others; has no genuine compassion for others).

I believe these two traits are essential in the mother who sexually abuses her own child.  She feels no guilt and no remorse, only fear of getting caught.  It really is “all about her”.  Mother-daughter incest does not occur in healthy families. The family might look healthy to the outside world, but it is not.

Healthy boundaries do not exist. The mother and daughter are “enmeshed”—as viewed by the mom as one person—“mother & daughter”—physically and emotionally. The mother does not care about or respect her daughter’s feelings or even see her as a separate person with rights of her own.

  • Daughter is objectified
  • Mother may rule a “land of 1,000 rules and regulations”
  • Daughter is controlled physically, psychologically and emotionally.   Compliance and obedience are highly valued, strongly reinforced and virtually guaranteed, starting in early childhood.  The daughters have been “groomed” since birth to never say “No” to Mommy
  • Mind games
  • Control
  • Manipulation
  • Isolation
  • Intimidation and threats

What are some of the common abusive behaviors for professionals to look for in mother-daughter incest?

A continuum of sexually abusive behaviors from inappropriate to intentional covert sexual abuse, to overt sexual assault “parenting”, such as bathing, toileting, voyeurism,  fondling, masturbation, excessive enemas, exhibitionism, oral sex, bizarre cleansing rituals,  penetration—vaginal or anal, fixation on menstrual cycles–both the mother’s and daughter’s, torture.

What role do fathers/husbands play in families with mother-daughter incest? Do they know what is going on? Are there attempts to intervene and to rescue?

There is some limited research available that was done by Bobbie Rosencrans, MSW.  She surveyed and analyzed the data from 93 volunteer adult women across the nation who self-reported abuse by their mothers, primarily, bt not exclusively, during their childhoods.  The data were provided in 1990 and she published a book, Last Secret: Daughters Sexually Abused by Mothers, in 1997.  The data point to:

  • Patterns of physical absence from the children’s lives and/or passive roles in parenting
  • Mother controls the home environment, the marriage and the children
  • Daughters “blindly” trust women, especially mothers; lack information
  • Survivors lack information about healthy relationships

What do we know about female sex offenders?  Were these women sexually abused when they were children?

There are three patterns of female-perpetrated sexual abuse:

1)  Romanticized fantasy—teacher-student (e.g., Mary Kay Letourneau and Vili Fualaau
2)  Co-abuser often with male partner (coerced, at least initially)
3)  Predisposed, acting alone

From the research it appears that unlike male offenders, all female sex offenders know their victims. They are related to their victims (e.g., mothers, step-mothers, grandmothers, aunties, sisters, cousins) or are friends of the family, such as neighbors, teachers, etc. who use the relationship to gain access to and to abuse their victims.  Some perpetrators report having been sexually abused themselves as children, but not all.  Many have undiagnosed, untreated mental health problems (as they’re evaluated after their arrest).

A second interview on the topic “resiliency” in survivors is posted here.

Julie Brand, M.S

CAPER Consulting
(Child Abuse Prevention, Education and Recovery)
2613 Harrisburg Ave., Henderson, NV 89052
Phone:  (702) 982-8156
Web site:

Julie A. Brand is a powerful advocate for mental wellness through her own firm, CAPER Consulting: Child Abuse, Prevention, Education and Recovery, but during her two-and-a-half-decade long career as a guidance counselor in middle and high schools Julie watched over children with a fierceness she would not begin to understand until her late thirties. She dedicated CAPER Consulting to confronting the subject of mother-daughter sexual abuse and educating other professionals about the complex dynamics of maternal incest and how to intervene effectively on the behalf of victims.

As early as 1988 Julie was nominated by her colleagues for the Reader’s Digest “American Heroes in Education” program because of her child abuse prevention work. She began teaching workshops that were popular at other school districts and spoke at national conferences on the subjects of child abuse, adolescent depression, and bullying related to sexual and gender identity. By 2000 she had written a successful grant to establish a “lending library” with resource materials on child abuse. She also trained her colleagues though in-service courses on how and when to report cases of suspected abuse.

At a more personal level, Julie’s counselling positions allowed her to encourage the children in her charge to focus on resiliency whenever she believed they might be exhibiting stress-related behaviors that were related to their own family dynamics. She believes “children know the difference between something done accidentally and something done ‘on purpose’” even though they may not be able to articulate it until they are older.

Now semi-retired, Julie continues her advocacy of children’s mental wellness by sharing her own experience as a survivor of emotional child abuse and mother-daughter sexual abuse. Julie reports that the latter topic is “under-recognized, under-researched and under-reported” in her 2007 book, A Mother’s Touch: Surviving Mother-Daughter Sexual Abuse (Trafford Publishing). She explains that it was only after her mother’s death that she began to understand how her own childhood may have informed her career choice and how it helped her to recognize some of the more subtle signs of abuse in others.

In 2005, Julie began offering private workshops and full-day training courses nationally on the topics of “The Best Kept Secret: Mother-Daughter Sexual Abuse”, “Resiliency 101: From Victim to Survivor” (since 2009), and “A Close-up Look at Female Offenders in Positions of Trust” (since 2009). Last year she launched a new workshop, “Providing Therapeutic Support for Victims of Female Perpetrators”.

Julie earned a BA (English) at the University of Oregon, Eugene, an MS (Counseling and Guidance) from North Dakota State University, Fargo, and has done additional postgraduate work in her field.



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Comments (37)

  • I didn’t remember the abuse until I was in my 30’s-40’s. I am currently back in therapy and struggling to actually feel the feelings of the abuse-I detach and get clinical so very, very well. I am not sure how much of this detachment means I have overcome the feelings and forgiven or if I am still in psychic and emotional denial and repression.

    I want to heal but at 66 have great fear about opening these wounds.

    • We hear so often from listeners that most people don’t remember until later in life because of all the implications surrounding it. Julie is so brave to have shared her story. She’s helping so many people with her message but it’s been difficult for her as well.

  • I was molested by two of my aunts. From the ages 2-5 i believe. I didn’t remember the abuse at first for a long time, but growing up I was always interested in sex as a kid. I remember fantasizing about having sex with women and and men at just the tender age of 8. I would wet the bed at night up until I was in 7th grade. Around 7th grade, I experienced flashbacks of the abuse and never told anyone because I didn’t want to ruin the family. Now I’m 22 years old and find it harder and harder to cope with. I swore that I would take the secret to the grave with me but it seems impossible. The flashbacks and triggers are more severe.

  • I remember a few distinct times I felt uncomfortable as a child, and have considered being abused as a child because I don’t remember a large chunk of my childhood and my mother matches every description that I’ve researched this far. It is insane and I’m not sure how to process this because it’s so accurate yet I remember nothing that would seem traumatic, but I feel it. I feel it on my body and the shivers and shakes but where do they come from? There’s no way my mother would have ever done this to me, but the facts are her, but my memory is faulty. I don’t know what to do now with any of this. I’m 20 years old and I no longer have consistent contact with my mother.

    • We wanted Julie to come on the show because we know this abuse is so prevalent but not much help out there. I’m hoping the show inspires more online groups where people can share anonymously if they wish for support. We had such a huge response to this show and the blog post. Not remembering portions of your childhood and be consistent with abuse that you could not process. It doesn’t have to be but often that is a symptom. There are wonderful counselors out there that can process this with you – just be frank with them before you come for this appointment so you know if they have the experience to help you with this form of abuse.

  • Your childhood never leaves you. The memories, even if not conscious, are buried in your bodies. I think a study should be done on women abused as children and certain chronic health conditions, to see if there is a possible link.

    I read, accredited to Buddha, three things cannot be long hidden, the sun, the moon and the truth. The truth was mentioned last, perhaps it takes the longest to come to the light, many moon and sun cycles and orbits. The truth comes out, even if we are not initially aware, in many ways, but we are often blinded by our own darkness, our eyes closed.

    My mother’s abuse, effected me in ways and determined my decisions subconsciously in my life, by finding repeatedly someone like my mother, who would ignore me, disrespect me, dismiss me , lie and abuse me, and I would try so hard to convince such a person that I was worthy of their love, by doing and trying, and then I fantasized everything would be fine, I would feel human, not a mutant, not defective, finally good enough. But I all I did was repeat a bad cycle and invite more pain into my life. I am healing but it is a life long process and probably won’t finish or complete it in this lifetime.

    Learning to honor and respect yourself and feel compassion for the child in you that tried to figure out a chaotic, confusing, disordered situation thrown at them. This has helped me and compassion for the adult that has made so many poor choices looking for love, thinking they needed it, from the worst possible places. Learning to say no, and if not heard, taking the next literal step, no words but action, like walking or running away,, this was a first baby step towards taking my own personal power back.

    • No it never does. It gets unpacked over the course of your lifetime. Many of us have had both parents that were emotionally, physically, sexually, and spiritually toxic. Since that is our first experience in the world, we seem to spend our lifetime working through those horrible childhood experiences via our adult relationships. You are absolutely right that learning compassion and respect for yourself – all of ages of you – is the resting place where healing can begin without seeking it through others (knowingly or unknowingly). The focus becomes about looking for your love for yourself, having friendships that are reciprocal with loving people, and not focusing on needing an “other” to fit in to societies version of normal. We can absolutely go through our lives without always seeking that other half – the missing piece in another person. The “missing” piece is within us. Once we welcome he/she in and embrace ourselves fully, we can then truly have peace in the present and with our past. Thanks so much for writing and reading!

  • I was routinely covertly molested by my mother (and also my older brother to a way lesser extent). She was always frustrated with me when I didn”t want to be fully nude just to get my hair washed out. I always felt, so exposed. I remember her washing my genitals a lot as well, till about 7. My mind has almost completely blocked out the fact that my mother would lay me and my younger sister down sometimes before school and put ointments and creams inside our vaginas. We were never given and explanation for this. Growing up, she would grab us by the genitals and tell us dirty and/or inappropriate jokes. The final sexual abuse is when she coerced me into putting ointment into my anus at 16 when I was more than capable of doing myself. I have no contact with her or my father (who raped my older sister at 7). I feel guilty for not having a relationship with my mom, dad and older brother (who would expose himself to me and try to get me to grind on top of him). That house hold was full of sexual, emotion and physical abuse and I ran away the first chance I got. I just feel incredible dirty, icky, unsafe and sometimes even shamefully aroused at the thought of being near them. I’ve been in and out of therapy and even hospitalized for severe depression and ptsd. I would love to have a “family”, but the one I have now has damaged me almost beyond repair.

    • We are so sorry that you had to go through this. You are not alone. This particular show has had so many listeners and comments we were surprised but happy. Happy because this was a topic that was not talked about but obviously relevant. It was taboo even in the mental health field but it is NOT anymore. Try not to let the guilt consume you. Just because someone birthed you does not mean you have to maintain a relationship with them. I understand the feeling at your core that something is inherently wrong, damaged, and toxic about you. This is what incest does to children and it takes a lifetime to unpack what isn’t true about us but as children we couldn’t rationalize other than to blame ourselves. There is nothing wrong with you. Please let us know if you would like a referral to a counselor and please keep listening to the shows. We cover this topic often as many of us in the organization have been through this type of abuse also.

  • As a mother of 2 daughters I have never heard of such a horrible thing.
    I can’t imagine what a mother could do to sexually molest her daughter.
    It’s so disgusting . D

  • Sitting here sobbing. I really believed my family was the only one who ever did this, and thus there was something wrong with me, because I probably just made it up. Thank you for validating something I have always known but never acknowledged. Now in my early 60s, after a life full of ‘weird’ (and often abusive relationships) finally time to face this.

    • I’m so glad this article and show was helpful. We’ve had so many emails and private messages about this topic and you are definitely not alone.

  • I recently came to terms with the fact that my mother abused me physically, verbally and emotionally, but I’m scared to think that her acts qualify as sexual abuse too. She used to walk completely naked inside the house, even when she knew my friends will come over. She took me in bed with her when I was a little girl, and she was completely naked and sometimes she talked about what my father did in bed with her, things that at that age I could not understand fully. From a very early age I remember she putting ointment on my vulva almost everyday, until I was eight, and she would wait until my friends came to see me to do it. I asked her to do it later because I was embarrased but she insisted on me laying on the sofa with the legs wide open and putting the cream on my parts with my friends watching. She used to put something that looked like a pencil up my rectum and she claimed that would help me go to the bathroom but I don’t remember ever having problems with constipation, so why did she do it? She didn’t allow me to use toilet paper if I only urinated because it was a waste of money, but she inspected my panties all the time and shamed me for being stained and called me dirty. When I got my period at 13 she inspected the sanitary napkins after I used them and called me dirty if a little blood would transfer to the underwear. I didn´t know that it was normal to be wetter during ovulation and she insisted that I was dirty when she inspected my panties during those days and they were wet. I truly thought I was being very dirty and nasty. I lived in a European country where going topless is allowed in beaches and pool areas. It’s a choice, not mandatory, but for me It was never a choice. My whole adolescent years she forced me to be topless at the pool and the beach even though I begged her to let me wear my top because I was very embarrased. She forced me to wear very sexy clothes like transparent blouses and super short shorts and walk right in front of teenage boys. Then if some boy said some obscene comment to me she woul laugh and tell me that he was right. There are many more examples. I thought this was only emotional abuse but not sexual because she is my mother. I am 47 and she is 70 now. I have always seen sex as bad, dirty and nasty. I suffered from vaginismus up until my thirties. I have lived in another continent far away from her for the past 24 years but she is still abusive when I go back to visit. She used to touch my vulva on top of my pants in a swiping movement if I bend over to pick up something from the floor. She thinks it’s a funny joke. She still did it last year and when I told her not to do it ever again she told me I don’t have a sense of humor. I am sure she would deny all the other things that I mentioned because she has denied all the verbal, physical and emotional abuse examples when I brought it up saying that I am crazy and those things are not real, that I must have dreamt them. Please, tell me that what she did to me is not sexual abuse, because I don’t know if I could handle it if it is.

    • I believe that you deserve to investigate what she has done to you with a loving and safe therapist and together make a determination about abuse. I am truly sorry for what you have experienced. Whatever label it is given, it is abuse and you deserve to be validated in the safe container a wonderful therapist would create with you. Thank you so much for reaching out.

  • My daughter who is 6 has been sexually assaulted by her mother. I have gotten no support from law enforcement or Child Welfare Services. All the mom has to do is lie, deny, and accuse me of what she is doing. How do I help my daughter stay safe when our system won’t allow me to protect her. I’m desperate at this point. Her mother is everything you’ve described but nobody will do anything about it.

    • We completely understand. Julie Brand is the specialist here and she can be reached on the article page. We highly recommend reaching out to her directly. She is amazing.

  • I was molested by a male janitor at church whom I later found out was also coercing my mom into sexual things with him. Then my mom molested me with the janitor watching. My mom had medication induced schizophrenia and I’ve convinced myself for 40 years that it was her illness, not actually her, that molested me. I found comfort in that. Then I found out this week that my mom had the ability to make plans to punish me when I didn’t behave as she wanted. One was an elaborate plan that she carried on until after her death by using my sister in law. Now I’m questioning if it was her illness or if she wanted to do what she did to me to please the janitor. I feel like I meant so little to her that she would sacrifice me to her lover to keep him happy. Then I feel stupid for believing this whole time that it was her illness. My siblings and then husband forced me to care for her when I was in my late 20’s through 30’s and she would say horrible things when I would try to help her bathe or dress. If she was evil when I was little, my siblings would have known. They also knew about the molestation, but none of them wanted to take care of her or to pay for her care and she couldn’t be left alone. I had a big house. I also had 6 children under ten but I felt forced to take her in. Then my siblings refused to visit or speak to me because they didn’t want to risk speaking to her or about her. I feel extremely used by all of them.

    • Mary,

      I understand everything you wrote. It took me until I was 47 years old to see clearly about my own mother. The very last person on earth you want to believe has no ability to love you are either or both of your parents. Try not to hurt yourself further by shaming yourself for believing her. This is so natural. Of course you wanted to believe it. I saw so many things and attributed them to the “abuse” she suffered, that she truly didn’t know I was being molested, that she has mental illness, that she was in deep grief after my step-father died. And then I finally saw the truth – she had and has no ability to love me or anyone else. She has no sense of self. She is whomever she believes her current partner wants her to be and that fantasy which is life and death to her is ALL she cares about. This is very difficult to realize. My hat is off to you for taking care of her and it is completely unfair that you were ostracized by your siblings when you were the one providing care. I did this as well after my step-father passed away. It’s a rough road and you deserve some peace and understanding, as well as, anger at how you have been treated.


  • I am very angry at my siblings. I’m angry at my mom. I’m angry at the Mormon church. My memories are a little jumbled. My mom stuck candles in me and the janitor walked in. She said, “you promised you wouldn’t watch.” But she didn’t ask him to leave. Then she told me that this was to, “keep the little boys away.” Now I’m wondering if that was to make it easier for the janitor to have sex with me. I’ve always thought that my mom doing what she did was the end of everything with the janitor. I only remembered a few years ago that it went all the way to sex with the janitor. I only remembered pieces before that. So I don’t know if she ended it for me with him or made it progress. I feel like it shouldn’t matter. It’s over. My mom and the janitor are both dead. I wish i hadn’t found out the plan my mom had with my sister in law. Then I could have stayed where I was. Now I feel like I’m trying to swim up from the bottom of the ocean and I’m already out of breath. I hate the thought that my mom may have helped the janitor to be able to penetrate me. But is it better that she did what she did because she somehow thought it would keep him away from me so she could have him to herself? I’ll probably never get answers so I should just let it go.

    • Wonderful counselors helped me get through this trauma. Please let me know if you’d like a referral to a few in your area. Letting it go is kind of impossible but working through it with great help changes your life for the better.


  • Thank you so much for sharing your experience. You are right. This was and is HER problem. And, finally, emotional and sexual abuse at the hands of mothers towards their daughters is being discussed openly. You’ve had a horrible journey but you are aware and awake which is the important part. If you ever want to discuss this on a podcast, we’d be happy to talk about that with you. Again, thank you for your bravery in sharing and getting through your childhood. You have nowhere to go but up from here.

    Kristin Walker

  • Thank you for sharing what you’ve experienced. There will be a lot to work through. That enmeshment with mother is hard to shake even as you get older but it can be done – with the help of a great therapist and a lot of self-care. Everyone deserves that safe and unconditional love from our parents. When we don’t receive it we look for it other people. Try mentioning what you are able to with your therapist. It’s hard work but getting it outside of yourself with someone you trust is a huge step in your healing.

    • Thanks so much for your advice. Are the things in my post worth telling my therapist about eventually or are they insignificant? I realise it’s significant that I didn’t feel loved by my mother but I wondered whether the situations with my mother that caused me discomfort are important? Thanks very much for any insight.

  • Hi.

    I would like feedback from whoever really as a balanced argument and honest opinion.

    I have been looking over this for a while.

    A lot resonates with me.

    However I am confused because I cannot remember specific acts

    More that I would wet the bed and wake every hour or so.

    I felt anxious and scared travelling and would wet myself

    I only feel this with my mother
    I remember early curiosity in genitals of dolls and babies / is this normal

    I was never told about periods or safe sex but I knew about sex and was never allowed to watch anything remotely sexualised

    I did not have any interest in boys till 18

    I always felt scared that my mother would find out I’d had sex and this was my immediate thought and shame always associated with my mother for years I slept with the same man and had difficulties till my late 20s and then psychologically it stoped hurting when I no longer felt guilty or shameful.

    Counselling triggered a promiscuous, disenhibited and indiscriminate phase where I would not always remember how I had come to be with the person I was with.

    Before I even had sex I thought that I had a prolapse

    I am always wanting to please others rather than myself

    I prefer to just have sex and not comfortable with anything else being done to me and don’t really like kissing

    I don’t like to be touched first but then I become passive if I am

    I don’t emotionally relate to sex

    I feel less bonded with sex

    I’m a little ambivilant to it and so that maybe means I will have sex too early

    I was in an abusive relationship which triggered helpless feelings of being used as a means to an end in every way like when I was a child

    After a traumatic death of someone important in my life

    ………… i was afraid to sleep and to come out of my room and scared to go to the toilet.

    I hate physical examinations and not because I don’t think the person is professional and or a pervet and doesn’t matter whether male or female but it makes me feel scared and my body will shake and I’m startled. It’s not about it being painful I just can’t figure out what it is.

    I remember early disinhibition as a child and masturbation but is that just normal? Oh and experimentation with myself

    I don’t associate the feelings of I guess fear with anyone other except there was a man on holiday once when I was a child and I used to hide away from him- I feel the same feeling.

    I was not bothered about nudity of anyone lol

    Ermn pelvic pain.
    Will purposely prevent periods
    Excessive reaccurance of thrush which again stopped when the guilt stopped

    I see sex as just a physical act and about either respect, power or control.

    Is this just because I don’t feel that I have the right to desire or be desired?

    I was very curious about the psychology of people and especially peadophiles


    When I was once asked if I was abused emotionally -yes
    Physical – not sure
    Sexual- yes

    I say it without hesitation but what if I’m wrong ?
    What are your thoughts?
    Could it be that it was a man and I’m just associating it with the fear of not feeling protected ?

    Would I remember ?

    Would I not remember ?

    Am I over thinking this ?

  • Hi,
    I really could do with some support please. When I was about 12 or 13 my mum started touching mine and my sister’s breasts. She did it in this jokey “I’m making a growth comparison” kind of way, but her vibe when she was doing this was strange. I know memories are not 100% reliable, but that’s the gist of what I remember. She did this multiple times over the span of maybe 6 months to a year, I’m not sure.

    At the time I never thought anything of it. We were clothed, as far as I remember. I don’t know if an outsider looking at this would think it odd, or just normal mother-daughter interaction? I raised this with my sister some time ago (in the last 2 years) and she said she couldn’t remember this happening. Everyone I’ve mentioned this to (a partner, a friend and my sister) don’t really know how to respond, and although my sister was grossed out, she continues a relationship with our mother (I went no-contact with my mum about three years ago). My friend and my partner are unable to confirm if this was inappropriate. What do you think?

    Reading some of the comments here, I can remember other things she did that were not quite right: she bathed with the door open, even when we were teenagers. Me, my mum and my sister all shared the same underwear until I was 19. Looking back, that just seems disgusting. She told me what it was like to have sex with my dad and her partner. I was the guardian of lots of secrets when I was a kid, but I no longer recall what those secrets were. She bought me a vibrator when I was about 18 and then quizzed me about what it was like using it. Am I over-reacting to feel that this behaviour was boundary-breaking and inappropriate? Thanks for reading.

  • Thank you for this blog and all the resources. I’ve been too scared to even put the words mother daughter incest into my browser ‘til today. I’m glad I did—sadly. I believe I had Stockholm Syndrome ‘til just a few years ago and I’m in my late 40s now.

    The damage my mother has done to me (and other young boys at the time) is inconceivable. The fact that there’s so little information on this topic is, to me, stunning. And the guilt my family has tried to force on me for finally ending my relationship with my mother abuser is astounding. Even when I (only) tell them about the two separate identity thefts, they still judge ME for being…cruel. There is a worldwide shame scheme that is inflicted on victims who finally decide to “leave” their mothers (and their horrendous abuse) behind. Which is just mind boggling to me.

    I’m told that “she did the best she could, just forgive and come back” which again puts me in a vulnerable position to be abused again—over and over again. And I am done with allowing myself to continue being abused. And if enabling family members want to choose to side with a criminal over a victim of identity theft (not to mention incest!!!), then I am done with them too.

    My mother did unspeakable things to me for decades (sexually) and even to me with another child once at five. I have few memories of her at a young age because it was all so sexual, violent and scary. And I wasn’t the only child she abused. I now realize that even women can be pedophiles. And now they’re getting reported more often. (Good.)

    The most troubling fact in my present is knowing this woman helps run the Jung Society in Dallas and is “helping” sex trafficking victims!!! She is only trying to hear their stories for her amusement (voyeurism is also one of her big transgressions aside from overt abuse). It is a staggering, sad turn of events when people do not believe women are capable of sexual abuse and people are not believed when they tell their stories.

    So they simply move on to higher positions of accessibility to victims. And the cycle continues because of the old wives tale that “women do not abuse.” Yes. Yes, they do.

  • i am going for therapy
    abused since child, bathing routine till 12
    constant sexual harassment checking and touching nipples, she said its a way to show motherly love
    sent to catholic school to be brainwashed by the idea of purity
    mum checked and see if i masturbated by rudely entering my room
    know no personal boundaries
    being sexually abused by mum during fist date at 16, she was infuriated and aroused, entering into my room, slept by my side and touched me sexually
    no allowing to go to school alone until 13, again, motherly love
    control the way of how i dressed and food, until now, 42
    this morning just woke up and my nipples were shown through dress, BEING EYE-RAPED.
    my nephew’s genital was touched by her when she bathed her
    she said all these intensely uncomfortable experience was done out of love
    same thing was done to me by her mother.
    not talking to her for three years.
    threatened to make me lose my job and to stay at home under her control.

  • she looked
    she preyed
    she lied in wait
    she acted like a predator
    intending to satisfy her twisted sexual desire
    she is pathetic
    she is sick
    she needs help
    she waited and waited until you are preoccupied
    she molested you
    touched your private parts by surprise
    feeling aghast, shameful, unbelievable, and surreal
    your perplexities eats away your pride
    thinking why my trust to her could be severely punished by disrespect and scornful abuse to such degree
    why my pride could be injured in this way that left me with shame, bewilderment and confusion.
    the more pride you have the more bloodthirsty sexual force attracted
    all she did was to scare me, infantilize me and
    treated me as property.
    she is scared, she is afraid, she is a cheat.
    objectification is plain brutality, and no food no money no ‘love’ could compensate this treatment.

    “that is how i was raised up by my biological mother”

    • We are always amazed at the number of comments on this particular show and article. Completely understand what you went through and thank you for sharing.

  • I’m not sure if my mom abused me, but she would put my head/face between her breasts and bounce them against my head repeatedly in the shower. I never told anyone out of shame, I always thought it was no big deal. Growing up I always felt so much sadness and shame, a deep need for my mother even if she was there with me. I still feel like I need her deeply even now that I’m almost thirty, I still feel like a little girl who needs her mother. Could someone give me their opinion? I’ve brought this up with my mother once, why she did this to me and she said she was just “playing”. I’m so confused, I do have a counselor I see but I’m nervous to bring this up.

  • My mom molested me when I was 5. I was a bed wetter and she used that as an excuse to fondle my genitals one evening before bedtime. She claimed she needed to “check if I was wet,” even though I never had issues with wetting myself while I was awake, only while asleep. My body knew as soon as she said she wanted “check me” that what was about to happen was unwelcome because my body got tense and I didn’t move toward her when she first said “are you wet!? Come here, let me check you.” When I didn’t move at her first request, she used abuse of authority to intimidate me and raised her voice saying, “come here!” She eagerly turned me around, put her hand inside my underwear and fondled my genitals for what felt like a very long time. Now that I’m an adult, I realize this probably lasted for about 10-15 seconds. I remember looking up at her because she was rubbing me and wasn’t stopping. I remember instantly feeling like my privacy was being extremely invaded. Once we made eye contact, she stopped and then pushed me toward my bed, acting as if I had done something wrong. I have a faint memory of her smelling her fingers afterward but my memories have been so repressed that I’m not certain about that part. I started masturbating at an early age (due to being taken advantage of sexually by an older child at daycare) and my older sister would tell on me to get me in trouble. My mom would respond by saying, “come here, let me smell your fingers!” Then she would make a face to say that I smelled and tell me to wash my hands. I was body shamed from an early age and still experience the ramifications of it today.

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