Lying is automatic for the high level narcissist.
Quoting from my book: Freeing Yourself From the Narcissist in Your Life:
“Most of us have difficulty lying, whether by omission or commission. Lying makes us feel uncomfortable, as if something is fundamentally wrong. ” This is not the case for the shameless high level narcissist who lacks conscience.
“The narcissist insists that the way must be clear for him to move ahead. If the path is smoothed through his lying, that’s al right.”
“Lying and evasion are a way of life for the narcissist.”
At a point of awakening you recognize that you will move along your own pathway of restoration, healing, transformation and the evolution of your authentic self.
Practice self care each day: get the sleep and rest you need and deserve, good hydration, nourishing food, movement and exercise, time in Nature, use of your creative gifts, a spiritual practice as you define this.